Jealousy.

On Turning Ten
By Billy Collins
"It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends"

I'm not a big poetry person. I never have been. And to be honest, I wasn't super excited about this assignments.

But I like Billy.

He can write about things in his poetry and still make sense. He doesn't have to write in the cryptic code of poetry.

I love the line above from his poem On Turning Ten.

This year has been a year of decisions and growing up. I have had to come to terms with the fact that my life is continuing whether I like it or not.

I decided to just accept it and love ever minute of it. I didn't want to let go of still being a kid and "saying good-bye to my imaginary friends" but that's what happens.
It happens. To everyone.
And I just have to keep on living and not sulk in the past.

I'm tiiiuurrrred.

I'm tired of being tired all the time. I'm tired of paying for overpriced gas. I'm tired of going to useless classes. I'm tired of waking up before the sun comes up. I'm tired of homework. I"m tired of having a job. I'm tired of thinking about how I'm going to pay for college. I'm tired of asking permission. I'm tired of my co-workers. I'm tired of my boss. I'm tired of working all the time. I'm tired of working all. the. time. I'm tired of having a group of friends and a group of "friends". I'm tired of high school kids. i'm tired of being in charge. I'm tired of earning money. I'm tired of saving money. I'm tired of the competitiveness of our community. I'm tired of comparing myself to other people. I'm tired of going to bed on school nights. I'm tired of the sound of my alarm clock. I'm tired of Calculus. I'm tired of dumb Chemistry. I'm tired of people who are disrespectful. I'm tired of not being able to trust people around me. I'm tired of curfews. I'm tired of drama. I'm tired of not knowing what he's thinking about. I'm tired of knowing that I have to go to school tomorrow. I'm tired of thinking about prom. I'm tired. I'm tired of complaining.

Love is...

Love is helping someone through the hard times. Love is always being there. Love is being the shoulder to cry on. Love is being the best part of someone's day. Love is carrying your son across the finish line. Love is being the one to read the bedtime stories. Love is having open arms. Love is learning to let go. Love is the support system. Love is the one who can always make you laugh. Love is catching when they fall. Love is losing yourself. Love is giving all you have. Love is being the best you can be for them.
Love is...

the best things in life

I love Disneyland. I love high school. I love riding bikes. I love my space heater. I love movies. I love chick flicks. I love Ryan Reynolds. I love basketball. I love watching football. I love Jimmer. I love riding bikes. I love warm days. I love the summer. I love romantic comedies. I love driving. I love the beach. I love winter coats. I love the Justin Bieber movie. I love cowboys. I love my N'Sync bobble head. I love my puppy. I love my cousins. I love BYU. I love my parents. I love being outside. I love fireplaces. I love Christmas morning. I love my best friends. I love the temple. I love Cafe Rio. I love chocolate covered strawberries. I love Olive Garden. I love the mountains. I love driving fast. I love going on walks. I love going on dates. I love the Lone Peak basketball team. I love sleeping in. I love going to the gym. I love watching Ellen. I love taking pictures. I love pictures. I love flowers. I love Stanford.
I love my freaking life.